ari lima

should be aku pulai sari tok..tapi apa boleh buat, " " nr-no respon..so aku de jak lah...kasih along,mesti ia nganti aku..ia tok pun pelik gak..since a few month ago,selalu jak sms aku..pelik!!honestly,ati ku dah tertutup untuk nn ti bernama along..suba aku buta,nda ngalala cinta,ikut kata ati jak..but now,i already aldult..know where is wrong,where is right..menyesal aku laban aku fall in love ngau nn..

tuhan,
apai kami ti di serga,aku bersampi ngagai nn..ampun ka meh penyalah aku..aku nda sengaja..jauh kaki ku dah bejalai..aku meremi ngagai nn,apai..aku ndai alai bukai alai ku minta, semina nn ajak..ampun ku tuhan..aku ngai mati pulai ke neraka..aku ka jadi pengikut nn di serga..jadi malaikat ti selalu merindang nn di serga..belagu muji nn..takut mai ku tuhan..wat i done??really make me scared..ari mit sampai ka aku besai,aku jadi pengikut nn..tiba2 diatu,aku jadi urang t nda manah!!!aku nda sengaja..aku takut!!beri aku peluang tuhan..anjung malaikat nn ngagai aku,awak jadi pemimpin aku dalam dunya injau tok..aku bersampi dalam nama anak nn, Jesus Kristus Penebus kami,Amen.

hardworking

1.aku menyesal sangat2, laban nadai belajar amai2 time agi sekolah suba,nti nda kan masuk university..bulih kerja perintah,nadailah keja baka tok,ngelaban panas,kena anu bala bos...

2.aku takut ngai ka kahwin laun..aku ka baby ku mpu..now i stil young,ulih melahirkan anak,ag bisi tenaga,tapi nti dah over 30,ndai mayuh agi tenaga.

3.aku dalam dilema.

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dat is me..

ari tok mcm nda betul jak aku..aku tfikir kan " "..wat he want from me??im very2 daif.. sedangkan ia,quite perfect..everybody say him nice,kind-hearted,hard working n so on..he has what i want ..how to treat child,how to servivour in this world..but the problem is,his married already,older 20 years then me..how??if i want him,of couse people will say that im materialistic,laki tuai,biasalah ka duit ajak-sori,dat is not me..ntahlah..mayuh2 indu bukai,more inteligent then me,more pretty, indu cina..apahal milih aku??SOT amai aku diatu..sometime, i think why he want me,im not preety,kurus g,mata sepet,not fair skin but im hardworking,ulih bekerjasama ngau ia,easy going,kind-hearted,non hypocrit and sex!!(jesus, please forgive me..all my sins)..udah mayuh kali ia mencuba ka mengoda aku..tapi aku ngai.and it start 10.07..we fight!!bodoh mai aku!!baka t memalukan ia gak aku-sori,aku nda sengaja..and i worked with him more then 1 year,can say dat we know each other..macam2lah ia shyco aku tme nya..bisi gak ia nganu aku..he add on my pocket money-apa nn ka meli aku ka??dat word out from my mouth..not 1 tme,but many2 time..last2,i accept it..(jesus,once again i say sori..please forgive me,my family and my fren,all my sins..)..boleh kata susah senang tme keja nang samalah,ngadu BQlah,nda mencukupi skoplah,att kursus together,att meeting sama, sometime he told me bout his personal problem..bini ia nya itulah,inilah..but i never told him my personal..dat is me..!!wat i know bout his mrs..she very hated me very much..fikir aku suka laki ia,sori ukai aku suka ia..ia ti suka aku suba..mayuh kali aku menolak tp mayuh kalilah ia shyco aku..
begining 08, he sent me to kch..work at kuching,he ask me to stay at his home,empty home but ful furniture..sometimes i slept there,more slept at my parent house..,tme nyalah ia menjadi mai perangai..but, i live like very wonderfull..can say,every evening he meet me..he really make me scared,takut famili ia nemu,famili ku nemu..memang aku akan mati kena bunuh aba ku..add on my pocket money..then give love..bahagia gak,tapi perasaan nda tau dilayan..ngai ka aku hanyut dalam duniawi..(jesus,bring me back)pas nya, sent me to sibu,tapi ku keja keras..even do he support me..then bring me to KK,check in Sutera Harbour..-5 stars..then check in at King Park Hotel..-3 stars..tme check in at Sutera Harbour,he treat me like im his daughter,ndai ngasuh ku dry his hair,everything he done for me..terlalu memanjakan aku..tp if he with his mrs,ia merengek baka anak mit ka susu,everything ask her to do,sangat cerewet-with everybody..but with me,everything ok..actualy,aku fikir if i go sibu,hubungan kami 2 kurang or tawar..tapi semakin menjadi,pas abis meeting he will take me out..he told me,if i want back to kuching,i must inform him 1st-he want to meet me..MUST MEET HIM 1ST!!!nya susah mimit..nti famili ku nemu,memang mati kena bunuh meh aku!!4th meeting,ia madah,if our KKM project finish,where he want to put me??i told him, search big project before KKM project finish..he want to put me at kuching..nya susah..paling susah,nadai keja,how come can support life at town..even do i can stay at my parent's house,ka makai apa?ka meli baju ngena apa?ka meda wayang baka nie?ka meri famili duit baka nie??hopefully kami bulih project besai baru, awak ka aku ulih keja ...or aku bulih keja ti manah..jesus,help me..i try to stop think about him..